finally a Sunday to rest

Finally Sunday come by...A day to be absolutely LAZY and really clear my room.
Gonna be very very busy next week especially,coz it is the last week before the project begins.However i will still be with them for ard 2-3 weeks for the recruitment exercises.
So next week is gonna be one tough week that I dun think I have anytime left for anyone else.
Not Junhan,not my family..and not even my Jason.
Sorry dear..

Although I am really still..."whoa..what is gg on~?" but part of me enjoys to be part of e chase also.
Really stepping out to work and just doing part time or attachment are totally 2 different issues.The feeling and the kinda commitment that you are gonna put in are different as well.

I never think I would enjoy and feel obliged to do what I am doing.Guess life is always full of changes and really...one is to learn how to deal.
Along these changes,alot of other things may change too...be it within or not within my control.

I feel like I'm being twirl in a whirlwind.Everything is spinning round and round so fast that anytime and anything could change the next minute.And I refer to everything that is connected to me,close or not,and even myself.

I dunno if I like it but I cannot stop with it.I just have to go with the wind to find up what is next.
It's always exciting and yet scary at the same time to discover the unknown,especially if it is connected to yourself.
The feeling of trying to resist and limit yourself from more changes and yet at the same time wanting to find up what could be next is totally contradicting and totally dangerously exciting.

I mean it could be good or bad.Every next minute that is gonna happen could makes e decision of everyone that is connected to me,like Jason,my family,my friends,junhan and myself.
That is why I am a lil scare yet I am not too scare to move on.

I never think this new chapter could be so..dangerous?I did see it coming but i did not prepare for such to come.
Whatever that I am talking right now,Yng is the one who knows most of it.

Be in control,i keep telling myself.
I cannot afford to do a thing wrong coz one decision or so leads to a different outcome.
Perhaps my dear boy would be scratching his head as he reads this right now,but maybe he understands too.

So I am telling everyone to sit tight..and prepare for the bungee jump yourself..anytime from now.Coz I may not be able to control the train afterall.It is speeding faster and faster...
Suddenly I recalled the scenario whereby Spiderman was trying to stop the bullet train.
Mine is the same except I am the driver and everyone else is the passengers...and I have no Spiderman in the train.

Sorry to everyone that I cant spend time with,especially to Jason.
If I gain control...of this train,everything would be safe.
*pecks on your cheeks*
I am sure you know what I am talking about coz you know me,sometimes even better than I know myself.

*Deep breathe*
And so the ride begins...